Well it took about 2 months, but I am in the same boat I was in before Christmas. Why? Well it has been building up for a couple of weeks now. To cut a long story short: I've been upset that You have not accepted me back into your life fully. I know you have lots of new friends and commitments, but you could find time to fit me in. How on earth do you think I feel about you going off to another mans house on your own? Look, I know that it is difficult for you to tell your parents,about me being back in your life, but it is hard for me to deal with. You said last night and this morning that you only took me back because you felt sorry for me. Is that true? I embarrass you, do I?
I didn't know what to expect when I came back. I was walking on eggshells for a while. Knowing that I can get chucked out is not a nice feeling. After what happened to me in Swindon: I really wanted you to love me again and do things together that we both enjoyed. Getting a job is something I am proud of. You told me you were proud of me. I am proud of you getting a job too. Things are definitely looking up on that front aren't they? When I get a full time job things will be very different, money will not be such an issue any more, and we can do some "nice things" and have fun.
I am sorry I lost it last night. You had every right to be horrible back to me. I just want you to understand me and I wish you could see things from my side. It makes me sad thinking that you don't want to or can't be bothered.
I am Sorry though.
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